I woke up like any other day, but for some reason felt
different. Have you ever had an intense dream
and woke up feeling you were still in the dream? That is how I felt. My brain felt foggy, if that makes
sense. I woke up thinking I needed more
coffee to jump start my day. As the morning
progressed, I realized neither coffee nor food was helping. I then made the judgement that maybe I haven’t
been getting enough sleep. So, I put
aside all the demands for my day and laid down.
I felt a bit selfish but decided that maybe rest was better than me
trying to do calculations on my computer.
I didn’t want to make financial mistakes. The nap was refreshing but didn’t change the brain
fog.
Nighttime came and we went to bed early assuming I would be
better the next day. However, when I
woke up the same fog came across my brain.
It was hard to concentrate. I couldn’t
put sentences together. Light and noise
were very distracting. Since there was
no real pain other than feeling like my head was in a clamp, I decided to do
what I never do, go seek medical assistance or what my husband calls – level 2
support. 😊
Going to urgent care was not in my plans for the day. However overnight cognitive changes were more
important than my daily schedule, so I had my office manager drive me to Urgent
Care. We proceeded to wait two hours to
be seen. I was ready to head back home at
that point because I hated wasting not only my time but the kind person’s time
who drove me there. I am not patient. That is another topic for another day.
I felt grateful for waiting when I finally saw physician’s assistant. He was very patient with my frustration and conducted multiple tests. He believed I was having an a-typical migraine. This is a migraine with no pain but other debilitating symptoms. He gave me a few pills and a shot. I had to then wait to see if the meds were going to work. One hour later we reconvened and decided the meds were not working as quickly as he thought and recommended, we head to the local hospital for a CT scan, just in case.
The hospital did a CT scan and confirmed
there were no other outstanding issues.
I was blessed by the results and went home to sit in the dark awaiting
the meds to take affect.
I also received another unexpected blessing I wanted to
share with you. As we were waiting on
the meds to take affect at Urgent Care, the PA asked if he could pray for me. And just like that, God stepped in and not
only used that person to pray for me, but He also reassured me in the process
that He was still there and had not left my situation. What a blessing to have that moment.
Nothing is a surprise for God. Not even my migraine. He allows certain things to happen in our
lives to get our attention, slow us down, or as a test to strengthen us spiritually. I felt the test and the ‘slow down’
sign. So, I did. I sat with the Lord and listened as He said “Be
Still.” I spent the rest of the day
listening to scripture from my Bible Ap focusing on what was important.
The next day the cognitive abilities returned but then the pain joined the party. My head felt like an 80s hangover for the next day and a half. But afterwards, everything went back to normal. Well as normal as life can be…
So, my personal lesson from this experience…
From losing my ability to think clearly…
To driving to urgent care…
To praying with a fellow believer…
To sitting in the dark with God…
To waking up finally in a better state, but pain…
God was with me through it all and He reminded me as friends
prayed and checked in on me throughout the week.
The most difficult part of that week was the light. Bright lights were painful to look at and I
had to keep the lights and my computer dimmed as I recovered.
I felt grateful when I couldn’t stand the bright light - God
sat with me in the dark.
God will stand with you during your dark times. He never leaves you. Remember the darkest night is like daylight
to God.
Grateful to be back writing and with no pain <3
Grateful for you!
Grateful for what is in store
for 2023!
Psalms 139:7-12
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your
presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the
depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the
far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will
hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become
night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will
shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified
because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you
nor forsake you.”
Deuteronomy 31: 8
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he
will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
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